I write a lot of blogs. There’s one for Freedom Church, another for Jesus’ Outsider, and another for Deep Mystery. I’ve shut down two more that just aren’t worth keeping. The problem is, there are some things I want to write and share that don’t pertain to any of the others I write. It’s just personal thoughts, struggles, or ideas that I want to share.
So, that’s one of the reasons I created another blog. Here, on a personal blog, I can share those thoughts, snippets of other writings, ideas, and challenges that are worth writing about and sharing. The other reason is a little more practical, I’ve never used WordPress before and needed to learn how to use it. However, my experience with it, once more thorough, will wind up on The Deep Mystery Files.
In fact, it was Deep Mystery Studio that prompted starting the blog. I have been working on it for some time now but have not made any real headway in the official launch of the business. Something just didn’t seem right. The business plan I had wasn’t working to inspire the passion it should have for the studio to make a profit and support the family while planting Freedom Church. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. Was it the service offering? Was it the idea itself? What was the problem?
It didn’t make sense. I love producing media. I love to write, I love to sit behind the Big Boy Mic and record. I truly enjoy directing and creating web videos. There’s nothing I offered that I didn’t find fascinating and wonderful. All of them have the potential to be great profit centers not only for us but for freelance artists of all stripes. Over the years, I’ve accumulated the knowledge and skill necessary to make Deep Mystery work. Yet, despite all of that, something was holding me back.
I have been in a sort of holding pattern lately with everything. Activity has been replaced with contemplation and large amounts of prayer to push through the barriers I have been hitting. It’s been going on for the last several weeks as I’ve sought the face of God for Freedom Church, Deep Mystery, and a whole host of other things that need decisions to be made. Doing little to nothing is very hard for me. I prefer to do things, accomplish tasks, and move forward towards goals. I hate being idle. The post on the Stainless Steel Soapbox touched on the problem.
During this time of concentrated prayer, I came to a realization: None of the things I listed above get me out of bed every morning. I may enjoy them and even have some passion for them, but that’s not what drives me. No matter what I do, I can’t muster the enthusiasm to build the studio as I had planned it. I just can’t.
At the risk of sounding super spiritual, there is only one thing that gets me out of bed in the mornings, no matter what the day may hold. I live to preach the Gospel and to see lives changed by the power and love of Jesus Christ. For some of you, this will not be much of a shock. Many of my passions have passed away or at least greatly dwindled in the last few years. For example, I used to eat, sleep, and breathe politics. Now, I stay informed but I don’t get as fired up about it anymore. Likewise, business and marketing were serious passions for a long time but now those are no longer all that important.
I came to the conclusion that I just can’t do a commercial for a steakhouse. There’s nothing wrong with it and I truly love a good steak, but I can’t do it. I am called to help people change through redemption in Christ. Period. There are skills I have that help me do that. It’s those skills that need to be shared with the Church-at-Large to fulfill the mission we’ve been given. I have to do what God called me to do in every area of life.
I will be shifting the media and studio into a ministry support and building role instead of it’s current secular marketing model. I need to build the Kingdom and help others who are called to do likewise. The more I move into my coming role as the pastor of Freedom Church, the harder it is for me to prioritize anything beyond the Gospel. This is the message that must be shared with all the world. The skills I have spent enormous amounts of time and money learning need to be used for that purpose. I can’t get anything else to matter enough to spend my time and energy on beyond meeting immediate financial needs.
I’ll be detailing the meaning of all this on the business blog as I get ready for the full launch. Thanks for indulging me. I’ll be writing here as often as the mood seizes me.